Damn Shame

Damn how could you put me through this? I wish i never got you and made you mine! You were nothing more than a trick. Took my money and thought the shit was funny. I guess they was right every thing that glitters damn sure aint gold. I tried to hold on to you and now that i look back it was just the thought of you that had a hold on me. Damn how I wish I would have known what i knew now, maybe my life wouldn't be upside down. Stressed and vexed damn i am a mess! You got me depending on others and feeling like a scrub, shit is real bad when i cant even afford to puff a dub! Thought i was in love found out it was lust, just was trying to get my fat ass off the bus! Now its back to square one, got to find my self another one and maybe just maybe she will be the one to save me!

Just A Little Vent

Well when things are not going your way the first thing people say is pray on it. man sometimes i just want to stick that finger that's highest right at them and tell im pray on that! can pray on it really be the answer for everything? like do you tell some one who's wife and kid just died in an accident to pray on it, or do you tell the man who just lost his home and is in the middle of a ugly divorce to pray on it? in this life aint nothing sweet and aint nothing promised but death. this world gets uglier every day. Prices for wants and needs go up everyday while your pay either stays the same or gets lower in this here game of life. so times praying is just the belief you need to make it i understand that but right now this very minute i need more than belief. this feeling that i feel is enough to kill me. I am so overwhelmed this shit is taking all of my energy. will things ever work out or will it continue to cave in on me till their is nothing left? right now im feeling like if this is life do i want it? i have been fighting for 27 years when will the beating be over or do i have to fight until my life is over? They say without struggle their is no success will i been struggling where the fuck is my success? My spirit is low real real low can any thing restore it? My faith hangs in the balance, im trying to think how can i win without crossing the line? im so tired of living in a world where crime pays and hard work is overlooked! to live in a world where money is held higher than life makes me sick and aint no prescription or vaccination for this. No i am not complaining just a little vent to get the bad vibes and bullshit off my chest. i figured i would release it and let you know the things that's on my mind.

Get Up

Damn why do i feel like its me against the world? its like no matter how hard a try or that i stay on a path that's right shit always goes left? my name should be cant get right if things keep going in this direction. we all know for every cause there is an effect but what we some times fail to do is change the way we react to that effect cause sometimes that can change your outcome. i have to live by my quote "Survival is the only option" i need to live it and mean it. things may not never go my way but as long as i believe i can get through it than i know i can. You cant complain cause complaining will get you know where cant no one do shit for you but you. So take your destiny by the hand and guide your dreams to come true cause this will not beat me nor will it be the end of me. it will take a lot more thin a sticky situation and a string of bad luck to keep me down cause right now i got to get up!